People will never know what does it mean by despair or maybe failure or despondency or melancholy until you be one of the victims of these. Ive never been in this really not good status. Especially when it comes to my studies. Oh Allah, you must really know your slave's heart. I hope what you gave me is the best for me. I dont wanna be such a L. Trying to accept the fact is the most difficult part in dealing with this totally frustration moment. Hoping for sun to shining again and the star to shine brightly cause I know, this time, maybe the clouds win.