Despair????

People will never know what does it mean by despair or maybe failure or despondency or melancholy until you be one of the victims of these. Ive never been in this really not good status. Especially when it comes to my studies. Oh Allah, you must really know your slave's heart. I hope what you gave me is the best for me. I dont wanna be such a L. Trying to accept the fact is the most difficult part in dealing with this totally frustration moment. Hoping for sun to shining again and the star to shine brightly cause I know, this time, maybe the clouds win.

Our life has its own up and down

This post was supposed to be posted few days before but because of some reasons, I did not post it.

Yesterday may be the day that I feel like everything is not right. What I did are all wrong and felt like a loser. You know, loser. But I know, things will get better as time goes on. What U need is just to have faith in Him and always ask for the best. I feel it now. Always pray for my best and accept it openly. Yesterday did teach me a lot. And today gives me new experience in facing the real life. And tomorrow, I know it will be my 'Up' day. If you dont really understand this, then, it means that only me know what I want. Anyway, after facing all the hardest things through my days in campus, finally, I got my own time to be happy and enjoy my days and life. Thanks Him for letting me to feel the happiness and thanks to you mum and dad for giving me the chances. I'm happy now and hope that other things will bring me happiness too. But if it turns out to be vice versa, I still have to thank Him. He will give me the best!!!

I will be updating new things. yeah feel like writing a lot of things after coming back from two weeks holidays! fun babe!

Down

For the first time in my life i feel like a failure

for some reason i just hope that time can be rewind

Maybe I could do it better

But 'if' is only a IF

So, I need to move on no matter how hard and how pain it is

Just remember this, usaha and tawakkal must be working together

And I know that God is always with me

when i need something

whenever and wherever

So, come on and get up

show them U can do it!!!!

YEAH!!! Im striving now with new hope!

Iftar time

Salam ramadhan to all of u and peeps out there. This is my first post since we started our fasting month last two weeks. And the post today must be something about iftar and of course it is soooo related to foods. As usual, we'll do an annual dinner with all the level 9 babes. So, yesterday was the day. For the past years, all of us had our iftar at IKEA. but, this year we were thinking of trying at other place. So, Alia suggested HR Steakhouse which is located Kg Baru and off we go. But not all of us could make it. From 17, only 10 of us made it. We still had lots of fun. Here are some photos.

sorry, the pictures are not in order. Thanks for making my day brighter dears.

Everything

There are lots of things happened to me in these few months. and the one that I'm posting here are the one that I love the most.

KAEDFEST 2010

we played Dodgeball.

CUCI THE MUSICAL 2

second show on the run. hehe. love it. watch it with my friends. no other words rather than superb. But, for me, I just love last year's. But I still have fun... here are the photos..

A day with kids

On 26th June 2010, for second time I joined my mum's kindergarten trip. Unlike last year, this year's trip was at Hi 5 bread factory, mini aquaria and MC Donalds. Seriously I tell u. I never thought that there is any trip to Mc D before. And that was the first time I experienced it with all the kids.

Early in the morning, the bus was already there in front of the school. And from what I can see, all the kids are like so happy waiting for the bus to hop on it too. Some of them can't even sleep the day before because of too excited to join the trip. Went off to Hi 5 bread factory and on the way to the factory, the kids recited the doa and watched cartoons just to behave themselves. The kids seem to be so happy looking at the factory from inside the bus. Because of the factory is really big and it has its own bread town unlike other bread factories, it gave them the feeling of convenience to enter and explore the building. We were asked to sit in a place that the feelings were like sitting inside a cinema and watched a movie which is called as Mr Brad. It's actually a story on the history of the bread itself. Then only we were brought to a place which I cant really remember what was the name of it. But, the setup and props are like taking a tour in a dark and narrow cave. Well, it does make us feel creepy inside it. But, the kids seem to have fun. After looking at the process of the bread making, we were been given the chance to shop at their mini shop. And, there's a lot of things that can be shop there. T-shirts, crackers, breads, cakes, and others.

Next, we move on to mini aquaria. We saw a lot of arowana fish there and others too. It gives them new experience to explore other types of fish different from what they usually seen. And the longest fish is the red arowana which the length is 120cm. and lastly to Mc D. we had our lunch there and went straight back to school after we had filled up our empty tummies with burgers,chips,drinks and other side dishes. tiring but it was fun.

p/s. mind my english. sorry.

Photos:

New Days

For almost two months ++ i didnt post anything in my page. and today, i got lots of stories to be written to. But, the main topic that Im going to discuss here is all about what I've done during my short semester , school holiday, and all. Ok, I'll start with this first. Sitting alone and doing nothing really make me feel bored. Its not that I dont really have anything to do. I do of course. But doing the same things for almost everyday really make me feel like I have to free myself out and do something else. WHAT is the 'something else'??? oh, I got the time to do all the things during this short semester and school holiday. And its really really fun.

First

Short semester is the most relaxing period for the whole year. I like it when it comes to short semester. Got lots of free time and 'leisure' time. lots and lots of it. till I dont have any idea what can I fill in the blanks for the free time. so, started to think of working. It'll definitely give me tonnes of experience.

second

for how many years already since I last went to Fraser's Hill, that day, my beloved abah brought us to Fraser's Hill to see the new development since he had time for us. we went there in a day trip. wow, it was superb. tell you what. the place really was been developed-in-maintaining-the- originality. means here its like, Fraser's hill in previous was like nothing there that we can do except for the breeze and environment. other than that, it was like nothing much can be done there. but now, the place is like wow. you can do lots of things up there. horse riding, archery, golf, and many things. just name it. so fun up there. i really love the way they preserve the old structure and still hold to the concept of british style. most of the buildings are still using bricks. and it creates one identity. cameron highland was like that once, but because of the too-developing process, it lost its originality in terms of preserving the building and temperature.

third

got a job in an ID firm. I am lucky enough to get to work there. Its okay for me even without being paid...and you wanna know why?? its because,for me, if You really wanna gain something or knowledge,you should not think of money soo much. the most important thing is our niat. and as for me, my knowledge in this line is still at the minimum level, so i have to think of how can i learn new things. there i go. Got a place to work with new environments, new people, having a boss, being a naive staff..(just exaggerating). by working, i really got to know the reality of life when we are working in future. tell you, its totally different between the life in university and in the real world. well that is for me la. got a nice boss, his name is Encik Ishak, he's actually an architecture students tooo. but, he loves to be ID more than architect, because he believes that he can express more things in designing. so, he built up an ID firm. but, his knowledge in architect field is soo wide. I love to be under him. the staffs there are also nice. they taught me lots of things even I just started working for the past four days. lots and lots of things i've learned through this four days. but, there are still a lot of it waiting for me. what is the most important thing now, is that, i have to improve on my PR. im not that unfriendly, its just that, because most of them are older than me, it makes me feel like so scared to talk to them like colleagues. the situation will be different in the university. I can talk to whoever I want too. =). actually they are all nice except for me who dont know how to talk and what to say....

well,, thats all.

some photos

got not time to edit it. this is the overview of the hill..

owh....HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANA...6 years old. celebrate it dekat desa water park.haha.

Pictures!

Ok, here are some pictures during my days in Inter-school Debating Championship.

with one of the debaters from SMK Damansara Utama. She was such a nice lovely girl and her school made it to final. They won the first runner up.

with Datin Norjuma Habib. She's so pretty and I was like speechless when I met her. My eyes doesn't blinking for even once when I saw her walking next to me. Ok, that is so hiperbola.

with the RMC's Students.

Nothing much to say, just missing u NUR IZDIHAR AZMAN!!!!

Life is all about......

Just come back from UIA after involving myself in a programme. It was the 9th Inter school Debating Championship 2010. It was a blast to be involved and got to be one of the committees. This year gives me new experiences as I was incharge in ratio which is a kind of official bulletin for the debate and all the updates and tips and photos also brain teasers are in the ratio. Got to know new people, new debaters and new teachers. Its quite sad for not being an usher but its worth to be involved in other bureau. This year event is slightly different from past year as each school can only gamble one team in each category which is BM, BI and also new category(Arabic). More schools were involved rather than teams unlike last year when it happened to be less schools participating in the debate and more teams. It's like one school sent about two teams per category.

After putting lots of efforts in debating, the teams that got to final for English were SMK Damansara Utama and Methodist Boys School. The winner goes to Methodist and First runner up was given to SMK Damansara Utama. For Malay category, the teams that moved to final were KISAS and also STAR. Both teams performed quite well and, as result with 6-3 ratio, the Grand prize goes to KISAS while STAR, still maintaining their First Runner up like last year. For arabic category, SM Islam Hidayah is the winner.

Dont you feel like Im giving u guys a news??????Maybe the way I'm writing this post. Looks like writing a report rather than writing a story. HMMM.............. I started to get interested with this debate after being the committee for twice. But still dont have the guts and i'm absolutely impressed and salute to all the debaters as they can give their opinions and points in public. Good job guys. Till we meet again next year. Mind my english. I'm worried with my english as I rarely practicing with my writings except for speakings. You know, writing and speaking are two different things. sometimes, we can write well but we cant speak well. Sometimes, when your speaking skills are good and your writings can be vice versa.

Friends

friends are a place for us to have fun.
friends are sometimes being the one who broke our heart.
friends can be the one we can trust to.
friends can also be the fellar that we cant trust to.
they are friends that are always there with us.
friends being with us in any conditions we are into.
the person that are taking care of us can be our friends too.
they can also be the culprit that can BADMOUTHING us.
person who may be the mastermind to backbiting us too.
for as far as I know, we should love and care for our friends.
to love each other is better than to hate each other.

wise man said,

Wishing to be friends is quick work, but friendship is a slow ripening fruit.

For though we love both the truth and our friends, piety requires us to honor the truth first.

True friends stab you in the front

Be careful the environment you choose for it will shape you; be careful the friends you choose for you will become like them.

I always want my beloved friends to know i love them the way they are.
be yourself and dont follow others.
I hope u can think what is good and what is bad for u to follow.
I dont want to stop u from being friends with others.
I hate it when people are talking about you.
I love it when people loves you.
I hate it when a friend try to be really NICE infront us but can turn to DEVIL(as for badmouthing) behind us.
Thats for today.
Love your friend as who they are.

The story continue

The previous entry is continued by todays experience. Last night, I just posted the entry on remembering death. And today it happens to my mum's friend's husband. Just got back from the musolla nearby to perform 'solat jenazah'. My first experience to do the prayer. As I was there and looking at the widow who were surrounded by a lot of people who wanted to greet her and pleased her on her husbands death, I really admire her on her patience accepting the fate that her husband is already gone. All her three boys were there to bathe their father's body. Alhamdulillah for their family that everything went smooth. Think of this today. Maybe today its their time, and who knows tomorrow will be ours.Wallahu a'lam

Its about life

Hmm,another topic that pop up in my mind is about life. I dont know why, somehow I am afraid of continuing the journey of being a mankind in this Universe. Not to say that Im dying tomorrow, but it may be happen in just a snap of fingers. Means to say,it can happen anytime and anywhere. Its about the cycle of life that we have to think of. Everyday,babies are born and they will be replaced with the numbers of dead people whom may be consists of old and young people.

The thought keeps on playing in my mind and the readings on the facts that happen in our daily life really strengthen it. Its time for me to think about it deeply. That day I read loads of newspaper that gave the news on accidents happened here and there. The first day that I read was about the accident on a van which the van was caught on fire and the driver pleaded to the publics to helped him by cutting his leg to get him out of the van. Nothing could be done as the publics did try to help him but It was difficult as the fire was really big. And the next day,it was about the express bus where a number of people dead on the scene. The story keeps on repeating day by day. Try to think on this thing, today we are the one who read the news in the newspaper, or watching the television and listening to the radio but tomorrow we never expect that we will be one of them and our story will be published to other people to read. And that cycle will always be repeated.

Like now, Im reading it and Im always thinking of how, someday the thing will be happening to me. Maybe not through accidents. Maybe its through other ways. Hmm, really truly deeply in my heart, Im afraid of 'that' moment. You know when Izrail comes to us to take our life. Im afraid of that and it always make me think of, am I ready to answer the questions and to live the life in the Hereafter. Im asking myself, am I successfully being the vicegerent on this universe? am I well equipped with all the requirements that God ask me to do as a Muslimah. And right now, the answer is still No. I do know it and I hope and pray to Him to give me the chance of being a good slave of Him and are always be ready and fully equipped with the do's and dont's before it comes to my turn. AMIN. mind my english.